House Hunting
lauren on Aug 07 2008 at 10:13 am | Filed under: a thing called life
Most of my house hunting over the last eleven years has basically taken place on the couch while browsing realtor.com. I’ve dreamed of the day the Lord would be so gracious as to give us our own home again. And while most of it has been just dreaming in those years we’ve also come extremely close to owning again.
We did everything possible in our own power to stop renting and to start owning. (Yes, I am aware of how terrible that statement is for someone who should be walking by faith.)
We’ve fallen out of escrow once when the owner changed their mind about carrying the loan, been approved with a co-signer on another home only to have the co-signer back out, talked another owner into carrying the loan on a home that we quickly found out was about to lose most of it’s land to the government for a future highway and we’ve even been pre-approved on our own finally but just couldn’t get the bank to drop even a dollar on the price of the foreclosure we had hoped to buy. So close, so many times. So many tears.
I’m a bit timid about getting excited but the mortgage lender faxed our Realtor the pre-approval letter and we have been actively looking to buy a home.
My hope is that all the previous troubles were simply because it was not in God’s timing. My prayers have always been that God would not allow us to step outside of His will for our family. We want His best for us no matter how hard it hurts to be told no.
We narrowed down the area and found a home that suits our family perfectly. It’s another foreclosure and we put an offer on it yesterday afternoon. I’m trying hard to be unemotional and unattached but oh.my I really, really, REALLY want this house. It needs a lot of work but for the first time ever I can look past the problems in a house. I can see us starting our new life there. The kitchen needs help, the yard needs help; it’ll probably take years to get this house to look like it does in my head. See, I’m not attached… I haven’t even considered drawing the changes out on paper. I admit I did search for a church, the school bus route and the nearest grocery store online last night though.
But if God says no again, I’ll shed some tears, praise Him and keep looking. He knows what’s best for this family and I don’t.
But I so hope we get this house.
This new blog design is just gorgeous, my friend! Love it!
Coming from you that’s quite a compliment! Thanks, Jules.
Now go rest so you feel better soon.
Well, I had wondered what happened to you. So glad I have found your new spot!
I understand your reluctance to get your hopes up about the house, but you know you just have to let go and let God…..it will work out for the best in the end.
God will bring the right home in His timing and you’ll look back and laugh at all those hard times and no the reasoning behind them! You’re one tough cookie and I know you can get through this, too!
Thanks for the encouragement. I really do know that God is working behind the scenes and He can be trusted.